I try to imagine what my life would be like, if the birdie over there gave me wings to take flight with, I might miss the way the ground held me down pulling roots from my feet, while the earths spinning round
I’m out bicyclin’, it works like Vicodin, I’ve haven’t felt this good since I quit takin’ vitamins, the fresh air is a release to my pores, I’ve spent too much of my year behind these safe locked doors
I’m starting to realize
This city is bringing me down
I swear I will lose my mind
If I don’t get out of town
I’m starting to wonder if I’m
Gonna leave the city for a
Long long time
I might need some help
It’s a pity that I’m stuck
Inside this closed trap mind
I must admit it, that I’m feeling pretty small town, like I could fall down
any minute and just quit it, this city is my limit, i haven’t found a way to feel right, even on those nights where your over, and your tellin’ me “maddie you are bigger than a pretty big thing, moving mountains with your words because you never learned to sing,” I’m no all-star, never really thought that I would go far
passive, aggressive, a couple cheap thrills and then that’s it,
it’s Sunday morning and we’re back, we’ve all got a friend who is there to give us flack, one day you’ll be mourning for the nights that you forgot, they’ll tell you: drink it down or be disheveled by your thoughts, how many glasses will it take until it’s all clear it’s the fear of missing out that brings us all here
I’m starting to realize
This city is bringing me down
I swear I will lose my mind
If I don’t get out of town
I’m starting to wonder if I’m
Gonna leave the city for a
Long long time
I might need some help
It’s a pity that I’m stuck
Inside this closed trap mind
It’s a far cry from the best, at least it’s not suburban but it’s still not the west. It’s got some good things going, and the going is good, I guess I could get used to a new neighbourhood. Take a walk to the river, with the sun in your eyes, and then whats coming next is not coming as surprise. I’ll take my wings and get out of here not stayin' all my life but the next couple years are looking pretty darn alright.
I’m starting to realize
This mindset is bringing me down
I’m starting to use my eyes
I guess could come back around
credits
from Meanwhile...,
released August 21, 2016
Maddie Jay - spoken groove
I’ll be waiting for your concert in Taipei in the foreseeable future (already bought tickets however the show got canceled due to fcking COVID) xellence
